went skating todae n e feelings was beri gd...nearly fall off frm high lvl when attempting the slope..learns up/down steps todae...T-break still beri jialat..aniway...my mood from gd totally change to moodless during the dae till the nite...
fa called mi todae..n he was crying..his gf somewhat betrayed him lar..n he dunno wad decision to make..went 888 for dinner/supper b4 meeting fa..heard sumthing unpleasant on the way to 768 bt actuali kind of expected sumthing would haben actuali wn 3guys n a gal go jb tgt n stay overnite...din tink much at 1st..till aft toking with fa...i tinking alot...nt oni bout fa n jas(his gf) de incident..bt oso on other things like my own relationship...hmm...
how to sae...kind of sad wn things jus got settled down but new problems will jus start arising again...n is abit too fast this time...n is not a minor 1...i awaes think having a relationship the most important things r trust, communication and love itself...to prevent ani quarrels or wad so ever..i will b jus ok wif it..bt in fact, i cant accept a guy hu lie or even hide things from mi..trust will jus b broken between the 2person..
hmm.. dun reali feel gd wn i got to noe sumthing which i suppose to noe earlier...n nt on the spot wn sumthing haben or is alreadi expose or even oni wn i ask n ask ba....kinda disappointed wn i tink over n over again...tink i was so gona b kept in dark if nt bcuz of fa ba...sighz..
n u surely wun wan a guy to have anithing to do with ani other gals wn tt guy is ur bf ba...k..tink tiz prove tt im still normal gal...cuz i do mind...no matter is wad kind of contact..sighz..
aft todae..aft conversation wif fa...i totally have the same mindset as him...shldnt trust anibody tt much ar...especially sum bunch of ppl..sighz..
jus nw was chatting wif qian at her house void deck...heart n mind wasnt fully wif her..bt still wasnt tt bad..till wn met up wif hong siang thy all...i totally quiet like wad le..seems quiet by the looks yet my mind n heart is like going crazy lar...i totally dunno wad should i b tinking or saying ...tot writing on my blog i would feel beta..n jus wn my tears rolled down my cheeks...i knew i reali feels beta...at least can cry out is beta tn kip everything inside n let it explode ba...
Disappointment + Disappointment + Ultimate Disappointment
Firstly it was communication, but i tot at least thr was trust n feelings..bt nw even trust was taken away..n wads gona b next..got nth to lost le i guess..
Mayb I would rather know nothing tn wn now i noe sumthing, it seems so torturing..i reali feel like an idiot...did i ask for too much?y is it so difficult?wad have i done to make myself deserve all these?
hw m i going to trust u?wad shld i sae?hw should i react?n wad should i do?u seems further n further frm mi...wad u sae isnt like wad u do..is all so wrong manz..
is been a long dae n tears r turning to waterfall le...gonna tidy my face n rest ler...stop my words here...
****Fall to the bottom of the valley****
